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BIDING TIME
© Williams 2008

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I’m not scared
I’m just waiting for a chance to come back home
When I look and see the monsters are all gone
I’ll come back home

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I’m not sad
I’ll just wait until it’s safe to smile again
When I can see where all the bad dreams went
I’ll smile again

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And I’m not scared
And I’m not sad
And I’m not wishing for a life I never had

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I’m not dumb
I’ll just wait to find a space where I can speak
When secrets won’t be crushed beneath our feet
Then I can speak

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I’m not blind
I’m just waiting until I can bear to see
When we don’t hide her wrists beneath our sleeves
Then I will see

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And I’m not scared
And I’m not sad
And I’m not wishing for a life I never had
And I’m not dumb
And I’m not blind
And I’m not good for nothing, I’m biding time

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I’m not free
But I’m waiting for my chance to cut these ties
When the truth no longer vanishes in lies
I’ll cut these ties

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And I’m not scared
And I’m not sad
And I’m not wishing for a life I never had
And I’m not free
But I’m not blind
I am not good for nothing, I’m biding time
I am not good for nothing, I’m biding time

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Download: Biding Time (mp3)

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Notes

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I wrote this the morning after a bad dream.  I’m dedicating this song to Ryan – or more specifically to Ryan’s younger self, who I think needed it more than I do. It’s just a draft version, and unfortunately the computer started making this horrid hissing sound as I was recording, so you’ve got that in the background.  I hope you enjoy it anyway!

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Please excuse my use of horizontal lines as a formatting tool – wordpress has made it nigh on impossible for me to format paragraph breaks. My lovely friend E is trying to figure out how to fix it, but in the meantime, you’ll have to put up with the lines!

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I’d be honoured if you’d like to share this song, or any of my songs, with other people. However, please link to the individual posts rather than directly to the download. Thank you!